Let it go

I put my run off today. I didn't skip it all together, but, being the typical procrastinator, I saved it until tomorrow. This isn't the first time I've done this since I started marathon training less than three weeks ago. I was ok with the idea of taking one more day of rest before tackling 6 miles (this still isn't an easy distance for me), but as the day wore on, I started to get kind of annoyed with myself. I could have easily pushed through the lame excuses and forced time into my schedule to get it done. But I didn't. Why?

Why do I always consider myself the exception to the rule, which in this case is my training program?
Why do I always need to adopt an attitude of "Don't tell me what to do ... I know better than you do!"

When I start to take on these two ways of being, I tend to dismiss everyone else's input as BS, and I ultimately completely fail at the challenges I accept, however small or huge-mongous they may be.

So, as I let my brain battle over whether or not I failed at my marathon training today, I packed up the munchkins and shlepped everyone to yoga (well, the girls went to the gym daycare). Getting into my mindset of letting go of the day to prepare for the poses to follow suddenly resolved my brain's battle. Not because I wasn't listening to my own thoughts anymore, but because I realized I could do just that .. let it go!



I don't fail at marathon training, or at anything else I'm attempting to tackle, unless I don't get back up again. If I stick with my intention to lace up my shoes and push myself out the door at some point during my busy day of appointments and job searching tomorrow, I won't have failed. But if I don't let it go and allow myself to accept failure because I switched things up just once, I will have failed. It's ok to make things work for me ... that doesn't mean I'm being a naive know-it-all.

So my AHA moment for the day: Let go of what you've done and what you didn't do. Don't get attached to your successes or failures, but just focus on doing what you intended to do. And if you don't succeed, brush yourself off, pick yourself up, and try again ... in your own unique way.